L’inizio nell’Outback
Christchurch: lei mi aveva aspettato e mi accoglieva nel locale fresco, protetto dal pergolato.
Il silenzio di un pomeriggio tranquillo mi stordiva.
Le lacrime, già versate nel tragitto da Dunedin, erano pronte a scendere di nuovo. No, un altro pianto no.
Ma lei non aspettava altro: che mi spogliassi e che le tendessi le braccia.
Ero afflitto, più che altro stanco, dopo l’ascesa al ghiacciaio. Lei voleva che parlassi prima del rito di iniziazione.
Mi sedetti sul divano, col viso rivolto al cono di luce fioca che filtrava dalla vetrina. Non volevo guardarla negli occhi, perdermi nelle sue iridi verdi.
Non volevo fare niente, nonostante mi fossi diretto da lei e l’avessi chiamata. Avrei potuto deviare per l’università, distante pochi passi.
Sentivo la sua mano sulla guancia e poi l’altra sulla barba ispida e dura. Non cercò di farmi girare lo sguardo su di lei, indugiò sulle guancie. Quando le sue labbra mi sfiorarono l’orecchio sentii il suo fiato caldo. Un brivido sopraggiunse al contatto della sua lingua sulla mia pelle.
E così iniziai a piangere, un pianto a dirotto, lo stesso, inconsolabile, che mi aveva scosso nella solitudine del viaggio sulla corriera tra le dolci colline dell’interno. Pensai alla chiesetta in legno persa tra il verde e l’azzurro, alla luce accecante che riverberava nelle fenditure del ghiacciaio e alla moltitudine di pecore che belavano.
Il dolore mi piegò, mi rannicchiai e mi addossai al suo seno. La pace e l’entalpia mi invasero a mano a mano che il corpo si svuotava.
Le dissi, sfiorando le sue labbra, di procedere, che, sì, ero pronto…
Grenade – Bruno Mars
Easy come, easy go, that’s just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should’ve known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
‘Cause what you don’t understand isI’d catch a grenade for ya
Throw my head on a blade for ya
I’d jump in front of a train for ya
You know I’d do anything for yaI would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won’t do the same
No, no, no, noBlack, black, black and blue, beat me ‘til I’m numb
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you’re from
Mad women, bad women, that’s just what you are, yeah
You’ll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my carGave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked‘Cause what you don’t understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya
Throw my head on a blade for ya
I’d jump in front of a train for ya
You know I’d do anything for yaI would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won’t do the sameIf my body was on fire
Ooh, you’d watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you’re a liar
‘Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby
But darling, I’d still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my head on a blade for ya
I’d jump in front of a train for ya
You know I’d do anything for ya
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won’t do the same
No, you won’t do the same
You wouldn’t do the same
Ooh, you never do the same
No, no, no, no
Easy come, easy go, that’s just how you liveOh, take, take, take it all but you never giveShould’ve known you was trouble from the first kissHad your eyes wide open, why were they open?Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trashYou tossed it in the trash, you didTo give me all your love is all I ever asked’Cause what you don’t understand isI’d catch a grenade for yaThrow my head on a blade for yaI’d jump in front of a train for yaYou know I’d do anything for yaI would go through all this painTake a bullet straight through my brainYes, I would die for you, babyBut you won’t do the sameNo, no, no, noBlack, black, black and blue, beat me ‘til I’m numbTell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you’re fromMad women, bad women, that’s just what you are, yeahYou’ll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my carGave you all I had and you tossed it in the trashYou tossed it in the trash, yes, you didTo give me all your love is all I ever asked’Cause what you don’t understand isI’d catch a grenade for yaThrow my head on a blade for yaI’d jump in front of a train for yaYou know I’d do anything for yaI would go through all this painTake a bullet straight through my brainYes, I would die for ya, babyBut you won’t do the sameIf my body was on fireOoh, you’d watch me burn down in flamesYou said you loved me, you’re a liar’Cause you never, ever, ever did, babyBut darling, I’d still catch a grenade for yaThrow my head on a blade for yaI’d jump in front of a train for yaYou know I’d do anything for yaI would go through all this painTake a bullet straight through my brainYes, I would die for you, babyBut you won’t do the sameNo, you won’t do the sameYou wouldn’t do the sameOoh, you never do the sameNo, no, no, no
